Get over fear

 

 

 

When I was a child, I could not make handmade stuff like painting, making cards or decorating. Wrapping a gift box took me so much time but it was not beautiful at all. I often felt scared whenever doing that because of my ugly handmade products. The fear went so far that if there was a craft lecture, I would find a way to quit it. I did not want to be ridiculed, I always told myself that I would never do those stuff, they were just for skillful people. 

Until I started working at Saxa, at special occasions like birthdays or Christmas, we usually make handmade gifts for each other. I always admire those who can draw so well, decorate a card or wrap and tie ribbon beautifully. But I cannot run away like when I was a kid. At Saxa, we cannot run away from anything. Moreover, I cannot let my silly fear down my colleagues’ mood or feel lacking of sincerity to each other at these meaningful occasions. Then I thought, maybe I should give it a try to get over the fear of making ugly things or of being ridiculed. So I started by drawing simple shapes, learning to make cards, wrapping or else that I have never done before. 

Then gradually, my colleagues have complimented my stuff. They said those were cute. Swear to God, I did not even know what kind of cuteness they were talking about. Maybe about my awkwardness. Anyway, I felt a lot more motivated. I started being interested in making more and getting over my fear. Now, I actually changed. I found happiness in painting and making the handmade stuff. Frequently, I do some to gift my beloved ones. This should be called a miracle that I feel so amazed at myself. I was raising that silly fear for above 30 years and finally recognized I was not as bad as I thought. 

After all, I have learnt that everything needs a starting point. For example, to be better we need to start learning and practicing, to have memorable experience we need to try, to have a love relationship we need to say it out and so on. It is normal when we feel a bit scared, nervous, hesitant and unsecured when starting something new and challenging. But the fact is, everything gets brighter day by day. I do not often do well at first, sometimes get stuck and fail, but times proved that I did much better than I was at starting point. 

My job at Saxa is running Logistics. Everyday new matter comes and goes. I do not know since when, the way of thinking has helped me successfully deal with tough orders. I realize I had let my fear overwhelms my ability that I did not know. And the best way to get over is not to restrain it but to put it aside and start doing things that I thought “Impossible.” 

Sarah – Quoted from Saxa Grow Up Handbook, 15.11.2016 
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