Love ourselves: we will find out the ways to create pride

 

2013.

The day I bought a Nozza only after 3 years of working, I saw it as a great success. My face when I was driving is bloated so that just by seeing it, you would want to hit it.

I knew I was very extravagant, but never mind, it was my effort, kept boasting. And also by that success, as time goes on, I focused on the material more and more. I silly thought it was how I love myself and make me more valuable in the eyes of everyone. 30 days, 29 days I superficially worked, and waited until 30 to get salary to go shopping.

But that's just the formerly emotions only. For me now, I call that thinking is of the young buffalo age, the time when I did not love myself enough...

I remember a boss's questions, while being yelled at because of superficial attitude to work. The question that made me froze, cannot released any word. "How old are you now, tell me, you've got anything to be proud of?" My boss looked at me, and asked like that.

I tent to show off the car purchased after 3 years of working, but I did not have the courage. Because I knew, they were just material possessions, not something to be proud of. I hummed, could not answer, just bowed my head and felt awful shame!

Seeing this, my boss asked again. "If there is not to be proud of, then do you think you love yourself enough? Because if enough, you will not allow yourself to live a boring life like this! Go to your room, and think seriously about it for me. "

I quietly walked. Inside my dumb appearance, I'd realized a lot of things: OMG, the new concept of love myself, the first time I heard. I thought in a simple way, love myself mean made my appearance beauty: clothes, cars, houses or something ... Truly, I did not notice that, it was not enough pretty.

How pretty I would be if the appearance was beauty but I had no outstanding achievement.

How many people would love me when I wore as a lady but I talk so boring?

And how much I respect myself when I stuck on myself a superficial, no enthusiasm, and no passion symbol?

A Mobile Vases. Exactly! If I kept myself like that, I would be a Mobile Vases forever.

I realized that, when hadn’t loved myself enough, everything shinning outside would not make me valuable. I couldn’t make boss believe in a staff that had a superficial attitude with company, I couldn’t make customer like a person who had nothing interested. As a chain: I didn’t love myself, I couldn’t complete myself. I couldn’t complete myself, no one want to stand by me. And when I was not stood by anyone, would I be a valuable person?

Therefore, I thought, my value didn’t depend on the house or the car. It depended on the thing that we loved ourselves enough or not. The more we love ourselves, the easy we find the way to create the pride.”

Bella – Team Creative

From Saxa’s Growing Handbook – 29.04.2016